Hi guys, it has been sooooo loong!
The past couple of months has been such a whirlwind. It has literally been one thing after another.
This post isn’t about anything in particular. The last time I posted was in June, 2015 and a couple of main things has happened since. I mean, I GRADUATED!!! Cap and gown and all! I moved to England! The move to England happened before graduation, but I’m still not over how amazing it felt graduating. So, graduating comes before England. It is definitely on the top of my list of ‘amazing things that happened to Ameenah in 2015’. I also got a job! In a primary school! In England.
Graduating has definitely been one of my biggest achievements so far. After I got my results in June, I knew I was definitely graduating. However, it really did not hit home until I was wearing my cap and gown. Damn, I felt like a BOSS and I walked like one too (couldn’t help it, WERK), especially when I went up to receive my certificate. I think it was just the feeling of knowing that I had done it. I had gotten through it and I had something to show for it, Alhamdulillah! It was an amazing feeling. Apart from the fact that it was a ceremony to celebrate my passing through college, my graduation opened my eyes to the overflowing pool of love and support that I have always had around me. Like, I knew I was loved (What’s not to love?!) but I did not realise just how much. I had people fly in from Nigeria and America just to watch me graduate. We were only allowed bring 2 guests to the ceremony, I had a little over 2, I think it was 4 or 5, or maybe 8?? (BTW I really hope that everyone else’s family had room to sit. SORRY, if they didn’t)AND they all had their cameras. Each one coming up to take pictures of me during the ceremony, that was definitely not embarrassing!!! The amount of photos taken on that day were ridiculous.
The move to England was pretty epic. It’s amazing how things work out. I had always planned to move but there was a point when I thought it wouldn’t happen. Time was passing, September was in sight and I was starting to almost regret not applying for my masters, just so I wouldn’t be left idle for the coming year. But everything happened so fast! I literally had an interview for a job on a Tuesday, and they wanted me to start on the Wednesday. Like, WHAT??! But Alhamdulillah! It’s been an experience. The job itself has been amazing so far. I am currently working as a Teaching Assistant/ SEN in a Primary School. I mainly work with an autistic child. It has been quite a challenge, it still is. I am wrecked after 10 minutes of class. However, I have never felt so fulfilled in my life. I mean, there are times when I am like ‘I ain’t about this life’, and then my student smiles at me and it is all worth it. Or he finally grasps a little bit of that maths I have been trying to teach him and I’m like ‘YAAAAS!’.
As expected, the move itself has been a little hard. It is my first time living without my family. In Ireland, I lived in a quiet enough place. Moving from that to London was a shock to the system. Everyone is ALWAYS rushing. There are definitely less smiles. I lived in a small town, in which everyone knew everybody and I hated it. Everyone was in your business. But I actually miss that now. I miss seeing familiar faces and smiles. I miss knowing how to get to places without using an app. BUT it is all good. It’s helped me in ways that I did not expect. I am more willing to talk to randomers, probably because I am in dire need of friends. Well, I have 2 or 3 (Don’t judge me). I am definitely more open and I feel like I’m a little bit more smiley. I appreciate life that bit more, and I am definitely that bit more thankful. You don’t realise what you have until you lose it. Now, I’m trying to appreciate everything I have, especially the little things.
The past year has taught me a lot. I do not really remember the first half. Probably because I was trying to figure out how I was expected to somehow get through the last couple of months of college, and actually graduate. However, the other half of the year has taught me that there will always be something to worry about. As humans, we are always thinking “what next? I’m here now and I need to get there”. At least, I am. At the beginning of the year, I worried about getting through college and passing my exams. I passed my exams, and worried about getting a job. I have a job and now I am worried about whether I am going to get into my teacher training. There is always something to worry about. But when I think about it, a lot of the things I worried about didn’t happen. Like I said, I got through college, I got a job, and In Shaa Allah I will get into my teacher training (<— It better happen!).
So, I guess you could say 2015 has taught me to try to live by these quotes:
“Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday, was it worth it?” Gandhi
“Rule number one is, don’t sweat the small stuff. Rule number two is, it’s all small stuff” Robert Elliot
Till Next Time